no point

i hate that point in life where everyday, every moment, every second and every tear just makes it even harder to stay strong

whats the point in faking the pain? whats the point in pretending your ok when on the inside your heart sinks?

whats the point?

bag full of emotion

so just when i think to myself things cannot possible get worse, things go horribly wrong.

when asked how i feel at the moment its a combination of hate, anger, hurt, frustration, sadness and i dont think i can possibly think of a word to describe how i feel. but i wonder why im always the girl who gets crushed??

why am i always getting battered and bruised?

and why do i get thrown around like im a joke

it makes you rethink who you are??

am i really the person i thought i was? or am i just destined to get hurt every time??

do i deserve it?

SOMEBODY PLEASE GIVE ME SOME ANSWERS!!

because i dont what to do!

why is it that, it gets to a point where we are so over it, that you feel you have to fake real emotion from the people you thought cared, because you cant handle talking about it??

or you can't handle the comments they throw at you, or the stupid "it'll be ok" all the time, when you HAVE TO FAKE your emotion from your your supposed friends that not ok.

no reflection..

ive tried for so long to be what you want me to be...

ive tried for so long to try to make you see me

ive tried for so long to show you i am real and not invisible

ive tried so hard that ive lost who i am

ive lost my own reflection fighting for you!!

i dont know where im going

who i am

or what im supposed to do???

you change like the seasons and either way i crumble and fall down, at times your like a hurricane hitting me straight and fast, you may not realise it but there will be a point where i cannor rebuild.

but then i meeet this girl, shes YOUR friend and she knows the pain, she eases the constant reminder and pain, shes lyk an needle, she takes away the pain or numbs it for a while. for her i am grateful, without her id be worse off...